Friday, July 07, 2006
xx 11:08 AM xx
it's never easy to recover a broken heart
it can take ages to do tt.. ..
the deeper u love
the longer time it takes
I couldn't watch the 1st NDP after the break up
cos it so remind me of the previous NDP we went together
Even gg to the library to study took a lot of courage for me to do so
I stayed away from cinemas for a long period of time
I stayed away from bowling
I stayed away from shopping malls
I still remembered there was once i went to 1 of Lido's theatre to watch a movie.. ..
when the lights went off, i shed a tear quietly
cos i was sitting near or at a specific place tt we used to sit
I still remembered the movie was " the piano"
I couldn't bear to go to places or look at things tt held such strong memories
mayb inside my heart i was afraid to think or to shatter those memories
for a period of time, i cried every night silently b4 falling asleep with my doors closed . ...
But today I am glad to have survived all these.. ...
no longer will my heart stop a beat
No longer will any memories hurt me.. ..
Even seeing a same person again won't make me panic.. ..
today, i am proud to say ... i can totally behave normal.. .. so normal tt even myself can't believe it .. ..
I guess when ur heart is clear.. .. & so does ur mind..
when u start to realise tt it's simply pointless to hold on to hurtful memories.. ..
when u realise the importance of moving on & doing things tt u missed out doing.. ..
u will realise tt life still goes on..
& it simply gets better & better.. ..
for instance, I managed to shed off the additional weight by exercising with friends..
read more books..
took up a new hobby
did volunteery work
clean up my room
managed to save up for the trips
did more travelling
spend more time with friends and family
start up my own tiny business & etc.. ..
nw looking back, i have realised tt i have been thru hell of alot
it was tough
so tough tt i wana give up each time
but i'm glad tt i didn't
nw i have a new perception of life and wat i wan
i really wana thank god for tt.. ..
this entry is for jus some thoughts on my mind
pls dun ask me anything abt this entry
- about me
name: KLW
sch: SIM
horoscope: Aquarius
Get my car license
voluntary work
work overseas
K800i Sony Ericsson
Nikon S4
Brisbane trip
xx abhors
liars
backstabbers
hypocrites
rats/ mice