Saturday, September 16, 2006
xx 1:27 AM xx
there r some pple tt jus dun get it.. ..
they can go on & on abt themselves.. ..
being so self-centred.. .. den they can come & ask me y i suddenly so passive.. ..
how can i NOT B Passive when the entire conversation is all abt complaining how lousy one is when they r much better off than me ? If i comment anythi, I got shot.. ..
Happy den pick up the call... .. when talki it's all abt them.. ..
tt alone is enough to drive me crazy.. ..
there's nothi wrong with talking abt urself... but can they please spare a thought abt others?
I am also a human.. .. if i can spare some concern , i do hope they can b more considerate.. .. y should i speak more when all they did was rattle abt themselves? wateva I have said meant nothi.. den y say more?
I dunno la.. ..
I jus feel sad... whateva I have foreseen is coming true.. ..
the silence on the phone has started.. ...
Sunday, September 10, 2006
xx 6:21 AM xx
this week basically flies.. ..
overall.. it has been a hectic week
with the official start of the job, i realised tt there r a lot of things for me to learn despite the 2 mths of trg
i guess a lot still has to do with the practical part la
emotionally, it has been an overwhelming one as well...
I'm definitely glad tt all my colleagues managed to make it & graduated .. ..
I will definitely missed them.. ...
I even told some tt they muz not hanged up my call if i called them in a crying tone
haha.. ..
it's a wonder how bonds were build up
from strangers to close friends
I certainly hope the bonding will remain strong
of cos along the way, there r some disappointed cases.. ..
all along, my judgement tells me tt I dun deserve to give my time & attn to some
but i still take a gamble in tt
disappointedly, things really happened.. ..
anyway it was expected
i'm willing to take the risk thus I'm also willing to bear them as well
I'm jus a little disappointed & sad
anyway if other party din bother to find out abt the reason i'm not bothered to say as well .. ..
i guess tt's life
it really makes one learned
right nw, i dun wana think so much
but jus to give my 100% focus on my job.. ..
=)
Monday, September 04, 2006
xx 9:52 PM xx
Have u ever felt a sense of loss when u have accomplished somethi?
Well.. tt's how I have been feeling nowadays.. ..
it seems tt everythi is ending soon & a new path is gradually taking place
2 mths training is coming to an end by this thurs..
Definitely feel sad abt it cos i have great & fun-loving colleagues.. ..
Will definitely missed them.. ..
I have attended my convocation on last friday.. .
Hate to say tt but time really flies.. ..
suddenly, now every1 is working or still searching for jobs .. .
it was quite a messy convocation cos a lot of pple attended
thus difficult to take photos with all the people tt I wanted to
Definitely feel sad about not being able to take photos w some of my friends
btw the food sucks .. ... dunno y .. the previous few convocations' food were so much better.. ...
Jus to side-track abit..
i seriously hate it when some1 pulled a fast one on me.. ..
esp when i treated some1 with genuine feelings & showed my concern as a friend.. ..
in return, i got fooled like being a moron.. ..
idiot..
Monday, August 21, 2006
xx 10:30 PM xx
last weekend was like dunno wat popular dates..
suddenly, I've gt a full month celebration to attend, a birthday party, a shopping date, a movie date, ktv, wedding & etc to attend
but i went to none
cos gotta study for my exams.. ..
haix..
luckily cleared liao.. ..
so happy.. .
anyway was a bit annoyed w some1's attitude.. ..
i think tt i'm an abandoned client
i dun understand y i muz b the 2nd class client when i am a friend of urs.. ..
i kinda of pissed till really feel like cancelli tt policy.. ..
though i mentioned ill try to suit ur schedule but it doesn't mean to the extent i MUST b available to u at all times..
i happened to have a LIFE too.. ..
from lunch appt change to meet after work jus becos gt appt at nite at the same place
when i mentioned I'm really nt free after work
den can ridiculously suggest i meet her in Aljunied for breakfast?
u think i can fly from Aljunied to Tampines
even if having breakfast i think out of courtesy, u shld suggest Tampines cos it's near my workplace where i can conveniently go to work not Aljunied where it;s to ur convenience & nt mine as afterall ur job is own time own target unlike mine.. ..
the best part is when i said it's impossible for me to do tt as it's gg to b too early for me to leave hse.. . she can mentioned tt's y she find it amzing tt i work in the east.. ..
THEN where's ur consideration? i dun work in the east i jus gg there for trg.. ..
i simply replied i'm more amazed by her suggestion..
b grateful tt i din add in the word "ridiculous suggestion"
it's nothing new
always changing my appt & wanting me to suit her
who's paying $$$?
*&%$#@#*)
Thursday, August 17, 2006
xx 12:09 AM xx
I have always offer my help to whoeva needs it
but i dun understand y when i needed the relevant help from tt person
i always dun get it..
perhaps tt's a way of life telling me
not to help others anymore.. ..
& ya i do feel kinda of hurt.. ..
but dun ask me ...
sorry but not willing to the specfied info.. ..
Saturday, August 12, 2006
xx 7:27 AM xx
at times... .. I jus love the idea of isolation
mayb i''m tired of showing concern to undeserving pple.. ..
Argh.. ..
Thursday, August 10, 2006
xx 7:45 PM xx
well.. i had a busy weekend + heart stopping experience this week.. ..
Went to Lifang's chalet on Fri & Sat..
Her chalet veri unique..
no BBQ (duh.. wat's chalet wout BBQ?) haha.. ..
we had fast food restaurant food anythi but BBQ food..
except the satay we ordered for supper on fri nite.. .. those were aso bbq-ed by the hawker haha
nevertheless, it was fun knowing more pple
esp they r all nice pple.. ..
I definitely have fun . .. enjoyed the pool games with them as well
jus tt i tried veri hard to study there (yah.. i'm tryi to b funny too)
anyway, when home on Sun ... i went to give tuition
den wanted to study on Sun Nite but was doing counselling service for a friend of mine
so tt explained my countless sleepless nites as I have an Exam on Tues
Tt was definitely the most stressful exam i had in my entire life
It was so stressful tt i gave up checki my answers
as i realised tt i kept changing again
den the stress was dbl when pple passed
i had to use the rough paper to cover the pc
cos i dun dare to c the results
I really have to thank god tt i made it thru
nw really have to study hard to clear the rest
pls continue to protect me like u did on Tues
